I can't believe I miss him this much. I guess you really don't know what you have until it's gone. I don't want him to be gone. I never wanted him to leave my arms, ever. Things weren't perfect all the time, but the good outweighed the bad. He always made up for being a jerk and kissed away all my tears. I feel like a huge part of me is missing now; I want it back. I miss my best friend. I miss having someone who could wrap me in their arms when I was having a bad day, kiss my forehead & say "what happened, baby?" I miss being called baby. I miss all the phone calls. I miss just hanging out with my best friend. I hate that I can't even touch him anymore because he's someone else's. I'm all his, why isn't he all mine? I didn't realize how much I really missed him until I was watching a video today by Mayday Parade. We used to listen to the song "Miserable at Best" all the time & this video has little icons & stuff for the song that say "I just miss him" and things like that. I started crying. I don't know how to make it stop hurting. I just want my baby back.

This is the video.

mood: miserable music: Mayday Parade

Just got back from Florida this week and I miss it already. Everything about it. Especially Kourt.


So, I have a new boy. His name is Tommy and he makes me grin. :] The only bad thing is that a.) he's Brandon's best friend and b.) I'm going to college next fall. It blows. I find a great guy and I have to move away. Maybe I just have bad luck?

I'm hoping he will come with me, but only time will tell.




Yeeee. I'm happppy.

music: Gregory and the Hawk